paintmesunlight

you don't understand how good i am feeling right now.
i love old friends, new friends, true friends.

i saw my 8th grade english teacher today at hallmark.
she remembered me, and it made me feel really good.
i was always a trouble maker in her class back then, i always spent my time in the hall.
but she was my favorite teacher, and i loved her.
i told her that she was my favorite teacher, and she seemed like that really made her happy.
it was incredible.

california, love me, even if i don't know you yet.

"i can be alone, yeah, i can watch the sunset on my own"

i feel good right now.
even though i am exhausted and i have to go work 7 hours.
i think it's because i fell asleep laughing with elisabeth.

we were making fun of people, when they don't like something it'll be like, instead of *NSYNC it's *NSTINK.
and i was like, "i love justin timberfake and *NSTINK".
and i was talking about how one time devon said, "dance gavin dance? more like dance gay dance".

i know it's probably not funny to any of you, but elisabeth and i were cracking up.
i think it's because we are easily amused.

i went to bed happy, but i had a bad dream, that was already true in my life, but it's just really hard for me to accept the fact.

it's okay.
i'm going to be just fine.

my intuition is faltering.

i can't see anything coming anymore.
betrayal or heartbreak.
i have become blind and way too trusting.

i think i am going to harden my heart a little more.
i know it will soften up when the summer is here.

today is always bad.
march 17.
st. patty's day.
i'm irish, so you'd think it'd be a lucky day for me, but it's not.

this is the one year anniversary of the worst day of my life,
and my boyfriend and i are kaput.

i'm going to go practice hardening my heart now.
it'll turn to stone in no time.